Neupogen infusion

I had my first Neupogen infusion today.

The whole process took about half an hour from start to finish. You start off similar to a endometrial biopsy, with a full bladder, lying on the bed, feet in stirrups, buck nekid from the waist down.

Dr. H took his sweet time coming in for the infusion, but when he was there he was very good about explaining how the Neupo was supposed to work.

He said that it seemed to have different impact on different people. Some people did not see a difference in the thickness of the lining visually, but did have a much heavier period than normal. Also they found that implantation chances were much improved after the Neupo. Some people even got pregnant. So he believed it was worth trying.

He then did his thing. Inserted a speculum and then with the help of the ultrasound monitor guided a catheter past my cervix into the uterus. Once in, he inflated a baloon to hold the uterus open. This caused a bit of cramping, but was bearable uptill then. He then slowly started to inject (and i use the term loosly as it was really just filling my uterus) the Neupogen. As he injected I started to feel more and more cramping till it got a bit uncomfortable. He deflated the balloon slightly to ease the cramping and that helped alot. It was totally bearable again. He said he would remove the speculum but leave the catheter and baloon in for a bit to allow the Neupo to do its thing. He then left the room.

I lay there marinating for a good 15 minutes. During that time, I started to feel a bit funny. Not enough to cause alarm, but enough to be uncomfortable for a good 5-10 minutes. I cant explain exactly what it was, but it felt like surges of pain going thorugh my spine upto my neck and across my body. Almost like my bones were cramping up. It came in surges, but in about 10 minutes this subsided completely. I looked up the side effects later and ‘bone pain’ has been described in 22% of cases. So that might be what I had. I dont feel anything anymore, and when Dr. H came back, I was totally fine.

When he returned, he explained that he felt that he left the Neupo in long enough that he didnt feel the need for me to come back in 2 days for another infusion, but that it was ultimately my choice. I agreed (no need to waste good Neupogen on a mock cycle methinks) and he said we would continue the cycle as normal and see what happens.

So my next ultrasound is in one week. It will be interesting to see how my body reacts to this. As always… stay tuned…


Weird things you dont think about when shoving blue pills up your…

In the weird things you dont think about category…I am in desperate need of a wax. A brazillian wax to be exact. I am pretty regular about getting my waxes. However, since this mock cycle started, I have avoided it for the past 2 months for fear of showing my regular waxing lady a rather blue tinted vee-jay.

But now things are getting out of control and I just cant avoid it anymore. So what do I do. Just be really thorough in my shower the day of and hope to god she doesnt notice? Or do I just tell her straight out: Dont freak out. It may be a bit blue down there. I am not an alien.

Yes I know I could let things just be au-naturel but that is just not me. I like things a certain way and this is as much as I can bear. So I shall bite the bullet and face my waxing lady fears, blue vee-jay and all! Just dont know how you tell a person they are about to see some really crazy colours down there without sounding totally weird…

Cycle 3… and Go!

So Cycle 3 started last week. Day 3 was Thursday. Lining was at a surprising 4.3! That’s higher than my starting lining for the last two cycles, and, for those that are keeping track (cause we all know I am), higher than my last lining check of 0.3 at the end of cycle 2… strange no? Oh well makes me wonder if the ultrasound techs are hit or miss at times.

Anyways, it is definitely a boost to the ego that I have started so high. This cycle is a bit different in that I have to go in two additional times for Neupogen injections in the vee-jay. Apparently to really boost lining development. This all happens next week. But first the endometiral biopsy this Saturday to get things going.

Finally we will end with the moment of truth meeting with Dr. H on August 15. Eeeep!

Then I guess I will decide if I want a second opinion with CCRM before putting all my non-existent eggs in one basket.

Ive decided to reschdule my hysteroscopy (once more) until after this cycle is over so as not to mess with the results. I think it is for the best. Also I dont want to do it, so maybe I will have a chance to ask Dr. H if it is absoloutley necessary (my feeling is he will say yes. Boo.)

Baby news

On of my besties is preggers! This is her third pregnancy. She miscarried last year and her first was born with downsyndrome three years ago, so it has been a rough few years for both of them. I am really happy for her and hope that this one makes it all the way and is healthy. These guys deserve it, they really are fantastic parents. She has turned her whole life around for her son, just so he can have a better future. Now these are people that deserve to be having children. Cant wait to meet their baby #2!

In other news everyone I know is moving into bigger ‘family’ homes. While I am still stuck in wanting to live in a two bedroom condo. I feel like maybe I am missing something, but it just doesnt seem right to be thinking of a future that just might not be for me. It will probably end up costing us more money to upgrade later in life. But I feel like Iwould be tempting fate too much if I decided to get a 4 bedroom house now. Plus not to mention all the upkeep, cleaning and maintenance that I would be stuck with while DH is off finishing up his schooling. No thanks. 1000sq feet of living space is good enough for me/us.

Besides, if it does happen in the next few years, babies dont take up that much space right? :p